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Mar 13Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

I hit the parent lottery, pretty much. My parents love (d) me. But they don't respect me, and I sincerely think that my mom holds me in serious contempt, and it's all her fault that I am shit daughter. So many people don't have it that good. So many.

Out of the blue one day, dad says to me, "You know, you've given us a lot of trouble, but at least you've never been in jail.". Mom is appalled, but I know a Dad Compliment when I hear one. Though I am also thinking What fucking trouble??

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Mar 13Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

Love the Schrödinger's Novel. I used to keep a list of titles for them but (by definition) never got further than that. Some of them were pretty damn good, if only I could remember them now.

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Mar 13Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

I was a terrible father, self obsessed and not dealing with addiction. I think my son knows I love him but he seems to have nothing but apathy for me.

Which is more than I deserve.

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Mar 13Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

The Schrödinger’s novel description is so true.. you start to write something, then you check on facts, realise they don’t add up, research, change the narrative, have a better idea, and round it goes until you’re not sure whether you’re coming or going 🙄🙄

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Mar 13Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

With a Schrödinger’s novel, you truly do not know if it’s good or bad until til you open it and look inside. Clearly, Micheal has never been guilty of writing one of those. 🙄

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Mar 13Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

I find adulting much less stressful when I keep at the forefront of my mind that all grown-ups are just kids cosplaying as adults. It's the equivalent of imagining the audience naked when you're anxious about performing: we're all more alike than not at our core (teenagers, on the other hand, are a different breed entirely).

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Mar 15Liked by Michael Marshall Smith

Fun read! I appreciate how you can convey a lot, with not a lot of words. I think it's built-in that, ultimately, parents and kids need to fail each other in some way. And I agree. It is extraordinary how, just the same, the love is built to last.

Also agree that childhood never really ends. That's why "imposter syndrome" is so common. It seems like there's supposed to be something more substantial about being an adult than simply signaling that you are.

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